Hard month August 2025 on me.

 This last month has been really hard on me and my heart. I knew my Teefa was getting older as she was 16. She tried the last scratch on her pole but her legs give in and she looked at me and said its time. Took her the vets and yes the tumor was taken over her insides and it was killing her slowly. I had to make the toughtest decision to let her go in peace to the safe place. It broke me heart as i said yes to that. Teefa went to the safe place. As driving home thinking how i would tell Tabitha that her mum has gone to the safe place. Got home and Tabby looking at me and talking to me as i cried telling her that her mother has slipped away to the safe place. Been hard on both of us. The next day as knew Tabby kept on dribbling now and then and i call the vets and took her thinking a infection she had and as vowels hadnt moved and it was causing her in pain . Vet looked at her said they can making her vowels move and would call me in an hour to let me know she can be picked up. But the phone call was not what i expected they got her vowels to move and then scanned her again and found a tumor top of her utress and that what was causing to dribble and not move her vowels. I said can it be removed but said they cant remove it. The vet then said i had a choice of two things what i can do first one is just have to watch her and keep checking her and take things day by day. The second option was let Tabby join Teefa in the safe place and i said no straight away. As it was less than 24hrs i had to bye to Teefa . Vet said to leave Tabby with then and i can pick her up at 9am next morning. I was on night shift at my work. Went in got me shopping on the way home and to keep awake got my house work done. But when i walked in my house with my shopping. The dead silence was in my house. I never had that feeling since my Jerry Lee died . Its then it hit me really bad with Teefa away and couldnt wait until 9am to go and pick Tabby up. In the vets when the vet Tabby through Tabby in her loud voice bent my ears and so happy to see each other. Tabby just has a odd drible now and then and she is doing ok.  So now at me and Tabby taking day day and she cries through the night as she looks up on the bed where Teefa always  slepted on. So many memories in this home of ours.                  As the days go by just getting on with my work and me tabby at home. Ian my work colleague was retiring and after our shift last friday we went for a drink with him and we all had a good banter and a few few beers. I had two tickets to go to the Edinburgh Military Tattoo and was seeing them but it fell through and asked my daughter if she like to go with me and she said yes. We never been before and it was a great show .for both of us to see.  It did pick me up after whats has been going in this month so far. Watched my Liverpool last night as they played Newcastle and what a game it was and we won and got another smile on my face.    So August has been different to my heart but always Teefa will be in me heart.