Hard month August 2025 on me.

 This last month has been really hard on me and my heart. I knew my Teefa was getting older as she was 16. She tried the last scratch on her pole but her legs give in and she looked at me and said its time. Took her the vets and yes the tumor was taken over her insides and it was killing her slowly. I had to make the toughtest decision to let her go in peace to the safe place. It broke me heart as i said yes to that. Teefa went to the safe place. As driving home thinking how i would tell Tabitha that her mum has gone to the safe place. Got home and Tabby looking at me and talking to me as i cried telling her that her mother has slipped away to the safe place. Been hard on both of us. The next day as knew Tabby kept on dribbling now and then and i call the vets and took her thinking a infection she had and as vowels hadnt moved and it was causing her in pain . Vet looked at her said they can making her vowels move and would call me in an hour to let me know she can be picked up. But the phone call was not what i expected they got her vowels to move and then scanned her again and found a tumor top of her utress and that what was causing to dribble and not move her vowels. I said can it be removed but said they cant remove it. The vet then said i had a choice of two things what i can do first one is just have to watch her and keep checking her and take things day by day. The second option was let Tabby join Teefa in the safe place and i said no straight away. As it was less than 24hrs i had to bye to Teefa . Vet said to leave Tabby with then and i can pick her up at 9am next morning. I was on night shift at my work. Went in got me shopping on the way home and to keep awake got my house work done. But when i walked in my house with my shopping. The dead silence was in my house. I never had that feeling since my Jerry Lee died . Its then it hit me really bad with Teefa away and couldnt wait until 9am to go and pick Tabby up. In the vets when the vet Tabby through Tabby in her loud voice bent my ears and so happy to see each other. Tabby just has a odd drible now and then and she is doing ok.  So now at me and Tabby taking day day and she cries through the night as she looks up on the bed where Teefa always  slepted on. So many memories in this home of ours.                  As the days go by just getting on with my work and me tabby at home. Ian my work colleague was retiring and after our shift last friday we went for a drink with him and we all had a good banter and a few few beers. I had two tickets to go to the Edinburgh Military Tattoo and was seeing them but it fell through and asked my daughter if she like to go with me and she said yes. We never been before and it was a great show .for both of us to see.  It did pick me up after whats has been going in this month so far. Watched my Liverpool last night as they played Newcastle and what a game it was and we won and got another smile on my face.    So August has been different to my heart but always Teefa will be in me heart.

It does runs in threes when something goes wrong.

 This last 10 days i had that with  Stray cat being run over by someone and me having to let my Teetha go to the safe place. This last week my Tabitha who is Teethas daughter was dribbling now and then. I did speak the vet and sounded like she had a infection. Yesterday she was at a lost like me without Teetha being here. Tabby kepted on going to the toilet but nothing came out of her and she was still having an odd dribble.I called the vets yesterday afternoon and took her in to see the vet. Vet said her bladder bowel was big and that she was as you can say constipated. I had to leave her with vet to get it out of her. 24 hrs earlier i had to leave Teetha  as she slipped away to the safe place. Me waited at home and got the call from the vets but was not expecting what i was told. Tabitha had a small tumor top of her bowel system and thats what was causing her to dribble now and then and make her constipated aswell. Vet said had a two choices what to do with Tabitha. Clear her system out and of course injections but couldnt do anything with the tumor or i could let her go to join her mother Teetha in the safe place.      I said no to that straight away as my heart would not take it with losing both of my family within 24hrs.  I said to clear her system out etc and pick her up at 9am in the morning.  With me being on night shift i went in to work and closed myself of thinking what was going on in my private life away from work. It was a long night as i knew Taby was in a strange place and why not at home. As i worked i looked at clock so much couldnt ask for time to go any quicker. I got through the shift and thought get shopping on way home and then get house work done before going to pick up Tabitha from the vets at 9am.                                                                                                                When i got home i walked into my house and it was empty no Tabby or Teetha to meet me at the door my house was empty. The last time i had that feeling was after Jerry lee died and i came into my home and it was empty. Thats a feeling i never want to feel again.                                                                                        So got with my house work i knew i was getting tired out as the last 3 days very little sleep and eating for me with what was going with Teetha and Tabitha. As it got time to go to Annan to the vets to pick Tabby up. I got there and as they went to get and when she seen me she let out as loud voice reaction seeing me and i got my ears bent . She was so happy and angry with me and i was so happy to see her. Paid my bill and headed home. As i write this she is going in and out the back door and talking to me as she does. It will take a long  time for us to get use of Teetha not being here but in our hearts.                                            Rest of this weekend iam not working and will be here at home with Tabitha spending important time with each other after our Teetha gone to the safe place .                                                                                                                         RIP  TEETHA 

                                                                              

Not Good start in August 2025 in my life.

 Last day of last month on the way to work and when i turned to get on the A75 at Gretna. I always look left and right but to the right i could see a animal laying there with its tail up. A lorry  was heading towards Dumfries came along but went round it. As i went over the road to head towards Carlisle i could then see it was a cat and i stopped straight away went over to the badly injured cat and blood all over the road . I lifted the cat to the side of the road but  it passed away. Took the cat to my vets and there was no chip and to now no one has come forward to say it was there cat.                                          As i was at the vets i said about my Teetha  not being to good with not eating right etc. I kepted  on bringing Teetha down to get a drink and air but she got gradually weaker and not eating and just sleeping more. Yesterday i called the vets and got a appointment for today. Last night i was sitting on my couch talking Teetha like i have done for over 15 years and her voice gone but her mouth was taking in silent to me. All the years me and Teetha always had chin wag with each other through the day. But this morning she tried to eat but couldnt hardly stand up she went out in back garden and her backs legs just give way . As i watch her and she struggle to get to her scratch post and tried to scratch it and she did it once and her strength give in on her legs to hold her up. As i went over to her she looked at me in the eye to say its time to go . I said you of to the docs and will get what we can to help you get better and back on your feet.                                                                                                                               We got the vets on time and a wee chin wag with each other. In vets the doc said to me checking Teetha it was a tumor in her stomach what really big and it was stopping her breath etc. As  i look at the Teetha in eye she open and shut her mouth to say like she had enough. Tear in my eyes and as  lend forward to her she give me her last cuddle like she always did. The vet said nothing we can do and dont know how long she would last as the tumor was killing her . There is nothing we could do and i had to make the decision to let go as i couldnt put her through anymore pain for a short time before the tumor killed her.                              So i had to let Teetha go the safe place with out ant pain. After 15 years we said goodbye to each other it broke my heart. When i got home had a heart to heart with Tabitha telling her that her mum and has to a safe place. It will take a long time for me and Tabitha to get use of Teetha not being around our house but always be in our hearts. Teetha has now joined Flicker and Jerry lee in the safe place and always will be in my heart for ever.