Last post for 2025

 This last year of 2025 started of different not to bad as it was a start to get moving forward with myself. The first few months went ok and gone with work and going to see Diane and Henry. As time went on here at home me Teetha and Tabby. taken each day as it come. I got a away for a bit for my summer break . Bit of sun and good walk aswell to keep my head clear. Things was going ok and looked forward to my break in december. So from doing my walks each weekend and just moving on with my life. But what did happen for real i was not ready for it. In august  my Teetha getting on in her life now and then she would get of her bed for a wee bit to eat and use the loo. But she slepted more than anything else. She came down stairs but couldnt get back up. I knew then she not in a good way at all. The tuma she had was getting biggar. Nothing i could do. But when she did go out the back and scratched her post what she hadnt done for a long time but she collasped to the ground. I picked her up and she looked in my eyes to say its time. I lay her down just from her feeding bowls and she rolled over like how she to do aswell. Like telling me its time to go. I took her to the vets and had to let her go and i was with her until she slipped away to the safe place. I came home and talked with Taby saying her mum was to ill to carry on. Tabitha i knew she had a wee problem as an odd dribble now and then and i took her the vets to see what infection she had but i was in for another shock when the vet xrayed her and found a tuma aswell and that what was causing her to dribble. My vet other me either way what to do. I said no to join her mum Teetha 24hrs after she slipped away. I brought Tabby home and vet said she didnt know how long Tabby would last. But at home she looked for her mum  but knew she is not there on her bed. I got a hold of Diane and asked her she like to go the Tattoo with me and she said yes. Not been to one before but really enjoyed it. Came home Diane went back home aswell and me and tabby at home and me back to work. Tabitha kepted on going for another 2 weeks but the tuma grew more in her and she was in pain. Then i had to do what i didnt want to do again and took Tabitha to the vets and i had to let her slip away to join her mum aswell. My heart was  ripped out in bits. 15 years Teetha and Tabitha  in my life and now they are in my heart forever.                                                                                                                                                      My 60th birthday went by without me noticing apart from a card from Diane and Henry. October came and mum birthday date and mum and dad anniversary aswell. Mum would have been 101 and they would have been married 78 years.                I try to handle myself the  best i could after losing the girls but i didnt. Went to work but coming home to an empty house shooked me more and dragged me down more and more. I couldnt and didnt want to do anything or talk to anyone. Done nothing else wee bit to eat and i would drink and just sit here. Work didnt appeal to me either. I just went done what i had to then back to an empty house. Did not do any walks as i was not interested to do them .I was going down hill more and more. In november i got my wake up call as i finished back shift and drove home went to get out my car but i got shooting pain from hip bone across bottom of my back. I couldnt move to get out of my car for nearly an hour.                           When i got out of car i got in my house and i just couldnt do anything at all as pain was still there not as bad.I lay on my bed couldnt move much. Stuck on toilet aswell i was grounded in a bad way. I called in work and told them and they knew i was not well as i never have any days of work being sick. I took 2 days off . I knew what the problem was i put weight on and the fat was causing the pain in my left hip and it got worse and i got fatter. I could see myself in the mirror and could see all the fat hanging at the bottom of back . I knew what i had to. Kicked my own ass and time to get rid of it . Back to doing my walking and no alcohol. I started to walk around my village again like i use to. After a week started to feel a bit better and not as much pain coming of my hip bone. I kepted it up doing my walking and slepted better and started to eat better aswell. I knew i had my holidays coming up from work. I had booked myself away in the sun for 7 days  what i needed. So slowly getting my life back up and running. Went to see Liverpool beat Brighton made me smile then i went to the sunshine for 7 days and it was what i needed and i enjoyed it the best i could. Helped Liverpool wining before i went and winning the day before i came back.               Now with the end of 2025 in 4 hours. I will bring 2026  in with a cup of tea when i get up in the morning. Happy New Year to you all out there .